Vent ig [TW]

Idk man it's just I used to be really good at keeping my emotions in check and I rarely cried but recently everything has been going worse. I'm rlly stressed abt my grades but when me and my mom were going over them I was panicking and really stressed out and she backhanded me in the stomach and grounded me lol so uh yeah. lately I've been feeling like a horrible person/friend who deserves to die, yikes. Idk if my depression has just reached a breaking point or my meds are having a side effect. Im kinda scared that if I tell my phyciatrist my depression is getting worse she'll immediately think its the meds cause I don't really think it is, things are just getting worse and it's getting harder to "repress my emotions" as the haters say /j