I genuinely might die

I talked with my gf abt the issue ima explain the whole thing, 

Basically my

Girlfriend got angry with me because abt a week ago i posted on my story an old sc from snapchat of myself yhat i send to my friend, because of this my gf got and basically gave me the cold shoulder for days, i spent alot of time overthinking, i decided to just apologize because i know she gets jealous and i was stupid for sending my friend a selfie, after days of her not responding she called me because she gpt locked out of her place and needed a ride to school, i arrived and i was silent the whole drive, i didnt wanna talk partially because she looked angry and partially because i just didnt know what to say, i dropped her off and she left just as angry as she got in, i went a few hours later to pick her up and tried small talk and we were able to talk a bit, i gpt her food and we just chatted abt her day, finally we get to her place and she asks if were gonna talk, i said yes and started by apologizing and saying that i understood why she was angry with me and that i know now whay i did was wrong and spoke and she asked me a question that left me kimd of speechles, she asked me if texting other girls and sending them selfies made me happy, i felt angry and fell silent for a while because i felt like it was an unfair trick question, texting and sending selfies to ANY of my friends would make me happy because i am a very friendly person, i didnt want to lose her tho and i know if i said yes that she would have broken up with me and so i told her no and we continued to talk and eventually made up, she told me at the end of our conversation that she wanted to take a break, a week, a week of no contact and no talking, i felt trapped and ao i agreed and she left, this was pn monday and it is currently tuesday night, i feel like im dead, i keep wantong to text her and see her hut i cant, i see her post on her story and i cant help hut feel torn up, i feel sick and she has no clue, part of me thinks she wouldn’t care or even naybe enjoys this like its her revenge, i feel horrible saying this but i feel so alone, shes not good at comforting me at all and most of my friends who i would talk to either arent my friends anymore or are girls and that makes it harder because i have no one i can talk to, im trapped and i feel like dying now, i started cutting again, not deep but the feeling felt so familiar that i wanted to keep going and i freaked and cried at 6 am before school, i think that i wanted to be freed from all this, i think that im the problem, ive had 4 girlfriends and every time i ruin it or they do and it never lasts, i like this girl alot but wonder if she wouldn’t care care if i was gone, i doubt anyone would except maybe my friends who i barely talk to any