idk rn

Im kinda in a stage rn where I don't find anything fun anymore and things I used to love js don't hit the same and I'm low-key missing my ex again. the one that I loved more than anyone and he treated me so well and ended up being just like everyone warned me and was a piece of shit. he never seemed like that until after we broke up. we are young and I knew it wasnt gonna last but he was there for me and we used to talk Abt running away together and all that corny stuff. he was the only partner that I was comfortable being cheesy around. my current bf is great and all but I just don't love him the same. I hate that I miss him. I cant help it tho. we were over a while ago. we broke up a while ago. I got over him a while ago. why do I suddenly randomly miss him again?

sorry for being such a downer I just wanted a vent (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠)