my lyfe sux l8ly trigger warning suicide

my life is like falling apart bc wdym my friend attempted twice and she might be dead like rn and i have zero idea and my ex friend is crazy racist so i stopped being friends and she got the whole upper classmen section to hate me bc they say im sensitive for dropping a racist..?? like.... and then my friend aurora wont pay me back bc i bought her candy and a squishy and i asked can u pay me bck? and she said i dont owe u nth.. like... i dont have a job since im not of age i dont just get money like that ughhh i hate my life T_T