i think its kinda fucked up that i have to bare so much stress daily like dear go-

Things have been,,, scary. This is a little personal but god its been so stressful beacuse a really important uh lets just say..meeting? is coming up and i geniuenly was paralized for over 7 hours now, i just scrambled out of bed when its the middle of the day i did NOTHING and i feel really bad about it beacuse i have SO MUCH planned to do for today and i think i will have to geniuenly speedrun everything to get back on the track

deep down i KNOW its going to be okay and i have nothing to worry about but at the same time i do not know how to get rid of this crushing feeling in my chest, it makes me wanna throw up honestly

Currenty im talking to my friends, they always help me feel better maybe this will help distract me from this crushing feeling i have

thats all for now, i know that this is more um sad and personal than most of my entries but  yeah, nothing else really happen aside from this um thing
maybe later today or tomorrow i wlll write down about some of stuff i learned and found out lately !

sorry for any mistakes in text, i didnt proof read this or anything lul