Struggling with my gender identity. anyone whose been there before can you help me?

just this week I've had a long sit with myself about my Gender and have come to the conclusion that I've never really felt right about being a girl. I feel like ive tried everything to make myself happy in this body for years, I tried losing weight and when I did it did nothing to make me feel better I still didn't feel like me, I just thought maybe if I lose the weight and get an ass it'll go away.

 i tried fixing my wardrobe, that also did nothing i feel so weird in everything i love, I'm too boyish for feminine clothes and too big chested for masc clothes. it sounds dumb but i feel like an alien with a wig on and some glasses trying to be a girl, not an actual girl getting ready for the day, I don't like being a girl but I don't wish to be a boy either.

like at first i thought it was just very low self-esteem no big deal but i really feel like being a girl ain't it for me, i look like one but I don't FEEL like one I'm not attached to this body. i don't like googling things the internet thinks will make me feel better, i feel like i seen every motivation, skin product, self-love hack, but i still think this is not me. 

I think I sorta just exist, I've never really thought about other identity's but having these thoughts now have got me looking what's right for me.