in times like this i'd want to make a break with life

hi everyone,

today there's sad "hi" greeting you because i'm a bit down right now. let me explain.

some time ago i had a relationship that lasted for a few months and it was very intense at first, but then from my side the initial "flame" faded down and i started behaving more passively, therefore i had a conversation with my then-partner and we agreed to break up.

after that i went through a very busy period but i felt more free and i thought (and still think to this day) that breaking up was the right choice.

now, i don't what is not clear about the verb "to break up": it does not mean "after a few weeks i say i still love you and i want to stay together again and i'll do anything in my power for you to accept my request".

i tried to change their mind but they started crying and at that point i couldn't do otherwise but accepting to "try once more" this relationship.

now i'm bound with this person i want to break up with.

what can i do? apart from going to a hermitage on the mountains and live there...

what an unpleasant situation to be in.

bye everyone