Talking about my life from August to September

So yeah, I'm back. I always come back (reference) Finally, I thought July wasn't my month, then came August and I definitely thought August was dreadful and that I hated myself, and now... September has arrived. If August was bad, my friends, September is looking promising, you know? I ended my relationship, caught dengue fever, all this less than a week before my scientific initiation group's play and...Even worse, a 15-20 minute play, with me as one of the protagonists, and only ONE rehearsal under my belt because this awful illness prevents me from going out due to my low immune system xD I love my life, damn it!. But looking on the bright side... I'm okay, like, I went through a depressive episode/crisis that lasted forever, but now it's kind of gotten better, despite everything that happened I don't want to unlive myself. 

Oh, I don't know, you know? I was going through a crisis of not knowing who I am, what I'm like, what my personality is like :/And that was weighing heavily on my mind, I felt like I was deceiving the people around me, I felt like I wasn't the person they met anymore, or whatever, and like, I deceived myself LOL But deep down, I'm okay, and I don't want to create expectations that this will last forever (I always do that), and many times I thought that being like this, being sad, was part of My identity (ERROR) and now I know how bad my mind always was. I went to a psychiatrist who was terrible; he kind of diagnosed me with generalized anxiety without any kind of testing, so I just kind of let it go. I know how I function and I know that my Despite everything, my anxiety is under control. He also mentioned bipolar traits, which I didn't take into consideration because he didn't ask enough questions or anything to really make sense of it. He only removed it because of family history ;/ (it was completely useless) but anyway, I'll start treatment by December, and that's it friends, I promise not to abandon my space again lol

_With love, Key