Thoughts

Y'know, I've grown up without money, I've been homeless. Sleeping on a yoga matt at some strangers house for 2 years. I'm older now, for the longest time I've felt empty? Hallow, like I'm missing something. I make decent money at my job, I could buy anything I want but, no items make me feel whole. It's something money, love and items have never been able to fill. I've taken medicine for it but it didn't help and I don't wanna give myself a pile of more medical bills. Is this what life is? Is this what being an adult is?

Feeling hollow and empty all the time? Needing more sleep than I should? Barely eating to the point I can even eat something small? What's life supposed to be?