Why do people love the ordinary? Its so boring.

Why do people love the ordinary when the ordinary is so vague and boring

When I'm participating in the ordinary, I feel dead. 

I also don't want to feel alive though, because that will make me feel bitter and sad afterwards. 

Can't I just escape to a dream world where only smiles and laughter and peace exist?

Where my stomach doesn't feel uneasy 

And where I am excited to talk to people

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Where I don't have to force myself to be happy, and can be sad without people worrying about me. 

Can't I just do that?...