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Helloooo! this is my first blog, but it's already so dark LOLOLOL so to start things off.
T.W. Vents, Rants, Heavy or maybe not Idunno actually but this is an emotional blog, skip if it makes you uncomfortable.
So, story time I have this friends well I don't know if they still see me as one. But lately, I have been feeling like they are acting passive aggressive towards me. It makes me confused and I wonder if I did something wrong to make them act like that towards me--As someone who isn't active often in their conversations I tend to lack new information about what's currently going on. I'm not on the social media app often and when I do reply it's hours late already, in which made me think that within those hours of inactivity, did they mistake my silence for disgust or indifference? I am the type of person to overthink things, mostly because I really wanna know why they're acting this way towards me. I felt this thing before, and now it's happening again, I feel like I am being suffocated because of this. There's some occurrences that I feel like being left out or made fun of and I just have no one to talk to about it. This has been bugging me, I feel as if I was doing something that they didn't like. I made plans that maybe in future events, planned hangouts--I might just decline and stay home or go somewhere just not with them. I guess I am also not the only one who feels this way, there's also few of my friends from this circle of friends who wants to leave. I don't know how to explain it, but there's some tension that I am not aware of... so I need some words/advice/ anything from anyone who'll stumble upon this, because I think my brainz gonna explode thinking what I did wrong or wadafrick happened while I was gone.
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suzu
Hi stranger, to start off i wanna say that i can resemble the situation just a little with mine. Not entirely, but i feel like that at times i miss out a lot if things when I'm inactive. When I'm away they talk for hours but when i come in they fell silent. Though they aren't passive agressive with me, at times i could feel the tension between us and the silence.... Though i can't complain because they are very good friends! The thing is that i started to be distant and then that's when the silence fell. I feel like it's my fault, but perhaps they also feel that they are at wrong because of my silence? Or maybe they think i don't wanna talk to them because of something but it's neither. It's not their fault. But i still let the silence there and never talk about it with them...
The thing is that i don't want you to do the same, not talking. Please if its possible just talk with your friends about the things that make you feel like that. Friends should understand, should be easy to talk to no matter what the subject of the conversation is. You won't know if you did something or not if you don't talk with them, you know what I'm saying?
If some of your friends feel the need to leave? Let them leave. After all it's a part of the cicle, at times you'll see friends leave and it's ok. Life is weird and you have to think that it's weird for them too.
woah (┬┬﹏┬┬) thank you for this huhuhu if I may ask, are you still friends with them now? or have you made up with them?
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I'm still friends with them which I'm glad for. We don't talk as much but when we do it's normal. Though i can say that i do feel out of place at times but it's fine either way pr maybe I'm just completely crazy for thinking it's ok. Tbh I'm suprised they haven't left because of how distant i am. Did you talk with your friends as well? Hope everything went ok on your part..
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