venting cuz i have nothing 2 do

I really fucked up cuz a guy kissed me while i had a bf, which i will forever love and he hates me now, i had never been so in love and i was and i am a stupid person, i really hate myself for doing that even tho it wasn't my fault :( 

I think he's in love now and it has been 2 weeks since we broke up, I can't stand the fact that he has to date another people cuz I really believe that's the loml

he has me blocked everywhere and that's sad asf but i really hope i get a chance at least to be his friend, i wanna see him happy i really do it's just that it kills me the fact that he's not mine anymore:,(