sexuality is so confusing, gender is so confusing

no idea what my identity is anymore that's the reason i decided to remove my pronouns from social medias. there is a bunch of labels from umbrella terms to super hyper specific ones and it feels like it just gets more and more confusing the deeper you dive in. you think you finally understand a term and then BOOM you are hit with new information that makes you question the whole system. in elementary school i was homophobic, in middle school i was an ally and in highschool i am just... queer? (these are general time periods btw) i feel like my sexuality keeps itself in the multisexual area though i have no idea about preferences. as for gender it is even more confusing since presenting it varies so much. technically i have been questioning my gender not much after i realised i wasn't straight (years ago) but i have always stayed cis since i never stuck with a specific label for long... worst part is pronouns don't have to match gender either. let's make everything more confusing, yay!

i am just myself and imo labels are too pressuring. I'll just present the way i feel like even if it changes a lot and i will choose whether i have feelings for someone based on experiences not by "rules" i put up

P.S. don't even get me started on questioning about being aroace... that is enough ranting for now