I moved!!

what a stressful thing but at least i'm not alone in this moving , thank goodness :)

what an emotional wave of rollercoasters this past couple of days have been, I am super close with my entire family and have been all my life. I hadn't stop crying the first 3 days and then went go visit my mom. they all helped me move though it was all of us and it was nice. 

I think the first days didn't sit in cause it was just moving and moving and moving and setting up and figuring out bills and everything and once it settled down and I realized what happened I was at work sobbing walking my way to the bathroom to continue sobbing hard. 

going from a loud house to just quiet has been a huge change and its very hard to get used to. I'm only just now finally feeling a bit better. 

this place definitely doesn't feel like home just yet. I miss my mom and my family so much, I was with them every single day, talked every single day, for all my life. and I officially moved out because well I'm at that age now (21) , and although I was super close with them I still would get fussed over small things and small things would be such a huge deal to them. I definitely don't miss that part haha. 

its such a weird thing like why can't all families just live in a compound neighborhood that is like all of us moved in different houses but very close and still can see each other daily. 

I wasn't forced to move out but I know that I can't stay there forever, I had found a place that interested me and genuinely just dove right into it and went for it. I can't say if I was ready or not , it had to happen either way. its weird cause its like now I kind of have to stay here in this place and not stay at my moms daily just chit chatting with her. 

bye now before I get way too emotional again