unfettered

unfettered

i didn't take the pills

for one day and

one drink didn't do me in like usual;

oh, but his eyes did---

not drunk enough to forget myself,

today not drugged enough to let myself,

i held back my teeth

and used my fists.

what peculiar things

these pills make me do:

tint the world easy for me

and trouble for you;

such delicate food

his body, my brain:

is the mind of a lover

worth living in pain?

what incredible things

i can drink with new eyes,

stars make me sober;

your lips make me cry.