𓉸ྀི 𝒟earest 𝒟iary.. ⏖ † ྀི

Hii !! this is just a diary of mine ! Feel free to read!! A small Trigger warning before reading : This blog at some point could contain mentions of : SA / cocsa, Self harm, addictions, and heavy descriptions. 

 || Log entry 001𓏵  ᛝ𓈒  { Sep : 01 : 26 }

Today was nice. Me and one of my friends headed out for a walk on the train tracks. I loved it. the fog was nice, it gave the forest an eerie yet calming look. on our way to the idle train sitting there, we saw a group of deer. Oh how I wish I could pet one. 

݁|| Log entry 002𓏵  ᛝ𓈒 { Sep : 02 : 26 }

I'm lately finding myself dreaming that I am walking through a graveyard. It looks oddly familiar to the one we used to live by when I was younger. As I am walking through the paths between gravestones, there is this frail and thin white horse that stares at me. The creature seems like it's near collapse. I can almost see every bone in it's body. Every exhale and inhale of air. After it stares at me for an absurd amount of time, it bolts. Weaving through the graveyard. Every time I have this dream, I always choose to chase after it. But every time, I always seem to loose track of the horse. I want to sleep more and hopefully have this dream again. It's reoccurring.. So i hope it comes to me again.

݁|| Log entry 003𓏵  ᛝ𓈒 { Sep : 04 : 26 }

I had a dream I had to dig myself out of a grave.

݁|| Log entry 004𓏵  ᛝ𓈒 { Sep : 05 : 26 }

I absolutely hate struggling to express /  explain my feelings. People get frustrated or angry at me when i freeze up or stutter too much, i just to try to tell them how i feel. Its hell. I just wish someone could understand what I feel for once, and that i could actually fucking say it.