Early Morning

... Life has changed a lot! I live in my old hometown once again! A natural disaster had occurred in the smaller town I previously lived, and so we lost our home there, but I'm glad because I hated it!! I'm so glad to be back here. I know they lost a lot of things, but I grabbed everything important to me before I left. I knew it was going to happen sooner rather than later, but they kept procrastinating and look at what that got them!! C'mon! You can't play with the hand of fate! Not when it reaches for you!...

... It's a very quiet morning. Unusual, because usually people are going to work around now, but I suppose it makes sense that it is quiet because it is SUNDAY! My sleep schedule has flipped the heck around! Now I wake late, and sleep early, and soon I shall rest my weary soul and awaken anew (with a pulled muscle probably. That happens a lot with me unfortunately...)

... It's actually pretty tough trying to keep up a blog for longer than a few sentences, as I'm not used to writing this much outside of my projects. Of course, I don't talk about my projects because I am just not comfortable!! They are secret!! But, well, some secrets are shared, and so a few of my friends know what they are! It's nothing exciting really. No need to trust me, I'm not sharing...

... I went from 2 cats to over 20!!! Currently I have 28, but it'll have to drop to 22 soon. Re-homing babies! Very sadly for me, I lost several of my kitties in the small town. They got-got by a cougar, coyotes, the neighbors dogs, or just plain vanished. But, those who were recovered were buried, have been memorialized, and will be remembered forever. Is that even a word? Memorialized?...

... I've joined a community I feel quite apart of, though I myself have grown distant somewhat over all this time because there are sooo many things to do on the internet and I wanna do those things instead of committing all my time to one thing. Every time I commit everything to something it doesn't work out, so why would I want to do that anymore? When I just stay back and watch it all, nothing can hurt me! Why would I want things to hurt me? I don't. But, well, maybe sometimes committing to things isn't so bad! I commit a lot of time to games like Daggerfall, Fallout New Vegas, and a plethora of others and they don't hurt me. So maybe sometimes commitment isn't as bad as it might seem on the surface. Not everything is out to get you, and not everything is going to hurt at some point. That isn't a healthy way to think about things...

... ANIMALS! We are animals! Don't forget it!! You are a mammal! MAMMAL! Just cause you got a label your species created doesn't mean you're any more special than anything else out there! You are special, but you are not a lighthouse!! You are not god!! You are the one who seeks the lighthouse like everything else, so act like it! Everything you do matters, and everything you think and everything you say, so please, think. Just think. If you don't like being bored, do what I'm doing right now, but in a private space, or maybe even here. It's okay to think and be bored and just sit around and do literally nothing for a little. Writing the thoughts is easier sometimes, which is why I suggest doing that, because I CAN'T think sometimes!! You have to think Mark, think!!! Be better! You can do it!!