i miss my friend

i feel like friendship break ups are way worse than romantic break ups and people don't talk about it enough. 

why is it always "how to recover after a situationship or a break up"? i want to know how to get over the fact that me and my friend had a huge fight and never talked again because we started ignoring each other and then he changed schools.

most advice i see on the internet is "cut off people who hold you back to protect your energy" and then it's just your friend who's going through a worse time and needs someone to be there for them. ofc there are exceptions but it seems like people are too scared of inconvenience and would rather stop talking then try to be patient or change.  

i didn't see the issue when my friend and i stopped talking. we both had this mindset of "it's easier to cut each other off" but now i regret it and feel too awkward to text him. i would reach out to him but it's been almost a year and i'm afraid he recovered after the fight and i would just bring back bad memories. 

maybe at this point i should just let him go.