Humanity

On a bus right now, and I can't help but ponder what it means to human. I don't know if others feel the same, but for my entire life I've struggled to view myself as human in a way that's dysphoria inducing whenever I think about the fact I am a human person... Perhaps it's due to my nature, or how I was raised, but I was always much more content thinking of myself as a machine rather a person. Anyways, as I get older it's been a lot more of wow I really do hate whenever I, the machine, try to carry out my quota tasks and I get interrupted by human feelings and emotions I can't avoid. But I can't help but go down a thought train, what does it really mean to be human?! Can you gauge based off criteria? But then, if there's a criteria, does that mean some humans can be less human than others? Where's the fairness in that.... 

In a way I think I am the Pinnacle of humanity as I am a human person with human experiences. Even though I don't like to acknowledge That. But I think we all are the Pinnacle of humanity. It's pretty fascinating to think about how different everyone's lives are