no personality

i don't know if this is too depressing or whatever for this site, if it is let me know and i'll take it down, but i'm not trying to look for pity on here (trust that i pity myself enough for all of us) i'm just looking for people who might relate or share their own experience. if you're gonna be judgy just don't say anything at all, i'm already down enough as is. thanks.

i have spent the last six years of my life online, no exaggeration. i'll go out with family once in a blue moon but the rest of my time is spent online. obviously this has affected me in negative ways. i lack basic conversational skills, struggle with extreme anxiety and genuinely just don't know who i am anymore. every time i'm forced into conversation with a stranger i'm acting, not very well mind you the anxiety makes sure of that, but i'm always trying to be what other people want from a normal human being. point is, i think the internet has forced me to believe i'm going to be judged no matter what i do. so in the past few years i've either lost myself or just never let myself develop to begin with. i know the solution is to get offline more, try new things. but i have a feeling that no matter how hard i try i'll always just prefer being alone in my room. again, not looking for anyone to feel sorry for me, just want to know if anyone relates.