sometimes i wonder if i'll ever find that one person

I mean like i think i'll find the one for me and I know I have so many years to go but like it gets to me at night that there is a slight chance I might be single and alone for the rest of my life, like I might die alone or watch everyone around me get married and have kids and then I'm just like old and by myself. 
i also think about how many shitty guy's i've dated too, I feel like that's the only type of guy i attract-- shitty, loser, annoying, and toxic dudes. it sucks major dick when I like sit and think about it, I don't want to be alone forever, i hate being alone but as i said in another blog, I'm scared of getting into something and then end up hurting myself or whoever i'm dating or just like idk something like that. I know nothing last's forever but sometimes it just feels like that, it SUCKKKKSSSSSS SOOOO BADDDD<//3