I bedrot

I bedrot whenever I get in trouble, I don't sleep because I keep talking to myself which caused me to hallucinate, I ignore my hunger just to avoid my family, I isolate myself from everyone, I dont have any devices while I was grounded, sure maybe being grounded is like mine, being alone and not having freedom but mine is much more than just being grounded, I keep getting treated like a servant, and keep getting pressured by my family and listening to their boring and awful lectures, I cry at night, no one was there for me, not even my family, I don't have any trusted people, nor friends, I'm really quiet and always isolate myself from everyone, I just wanted to be alone from my family but they just keep forcing me into chores and lectures etc. I imagined all of the worse things I would experience whenever I'm in trouble, I rather not say though it might be too uncomfortable, and it also triggers my anxiety which causes me to twitch, I forced myself to be stiff, quiet, and still, so i won't get anymore trouble. I do hug my large pig plushie to comfort myself or to calm my anxiety but my parents just warned me that they would throw the plushie away because im getting too childish, I don't care.