how do people get boyfriend no glue or borax??? like im lost .·´¯`(>▂<)´¯`·.

I've never had a boyfriend, which is obvious since I wouldn't be making this post if I had. I'm like semi-serious about this, but I'm not gonna act like I need a boyfriend to be happy in life because that would be pathetic, but it would feel nice to have one. Maybe I ask for too much? Because my ideal guy would probably take decades to find (°ロ°). I've only had one relationship in my life, and it was with a girl; it was in 5th grade (I'm a sophomore in high school now, so this was 5 years ago) and i dont like to say shes my first since she was a total ass, she would force me to lay on her, kiss her and she would touch me a whole lot when i didnt wanna be touched. hell, I didn't even wanna be with her! I only said yes because I had a little crush on her, but I didn't actually wanna get with her, and I said yes because she just broke up with her gf and I didn't wanna be an asshole since everyone was staring and watching when she asked. And at the time I was transgender, well, I thought I was, but it didn't feel right, and after my mom told me I had to break up, she started calling me trans slurs and shit to other people. So yeah, not a good experience for a like 10-year-old girl who never dated anybody. Also, I just feel like I should mention this: I'm not necessarily labeled when it comes to my sexuality; like I simply like what I like. If I like someone, it isn't necessarily gonna be based on their gender, and the only reason I'm mostly talking about wanting to be with a guy is I've had a preference toward men, but I would find women and non-binary people attractive at times (the only reason i didnt put transgender is because i more or so see them as what they transitinoned toward rather than just transgender). Anyway, uhm yeah i low key hate this and don't even really wanna post it, but uh yeah, BYEEEE ☆*: .｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆ !!