I hate myself so much

I hate my life so much I hate love I swear I try so hard to be liked I swear it will never be enough I prob just ruined my friend ship because I fall so fast for someone who was just nice I'm so tired of being used and miss treated the only why I've been loved is when I showed off my body I don't wanna live like this anymore I always see people who are better I just wanna be pretty so bad I do anything and everything I can to change my appearance but its never enough when will I be in the spotlight when will things look up for me I've done everything I've ever thought of to be better when will I find my person when will I be popular and pretty and skinny and cool what else do I have to do I hate everything