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@sparkleidol_ · Aug 11 
I miss my brother. 
@rantaroinfo · Aug 11
You have a brother?
@sparkleidol_ · Aug 11 
Yeah! He is an idol too. Tsumugi. 
@rantaroinfo · Aug 12 
Interesting. Noted. 
@sparkleidol_ · Aug 12 
Do you have any siblings? The Amami I know has a lot… 
@rantaroinfo · Aug 12
No. None.

It's really ironic that I had this conversation. Normally I am okay with lying to people about things. I write all my continuous lies down in one of my journals so I don't forget. I sort them alphabetically- there are too many to simply scribble in. This is one of them. Anyways, it's ironic because I ran into one of my brothers while I was in New York. I wasn't expecting it at all. He had the same disgusting accent as always. To say the least, he's now living in the ground with 2 of his other siblings who met his same fate. His precious little sister and his twin brother. It's been awhile since that has happened to me. Let's hope the other 3 get to stay alive. 
I've only seen it in the newspaper once. I threw it out once I saw 'Antell' near a missing headline. I threw it out immediately. Never paid any mind. 
I'm back in Japan now. As of 8/14/26

LEGALLY SHUICHI @LEGALLYSAIHARA · Aug 11
Ohhh Rantaro, my Rantaro, my love for you runs as deep as the Mariana Trench.  Which is pretty deep. In case you were wondering. I'm only replying to you for added intimacy. Happy birthday.
 INFOMAMI-KUN @rantaroinfo · Aug 11 
You called me Rantaro. 
LEGALLY SHUICHI @LEGALLYSAIHARA · Aug 11 
Yeah for even more added intimacy 
INFOMAMI-KUN @rantaroinfo · Aug 11 
ehr 
LEGALLY SHUICHI @LEGALLYSAIHARA · Aug 11 
Oh my God fine I'll never do anything again 
INFOMAMI-KUN @rantaroinfo · Aug 11
I didn't even do anything. 
LEGALLY SHUICHI @LEGALLYSAIHARA · Aug 11 
You said something completely unsubstantial, so I just assumed you disliked my confession of love.
INFOMAMI-KUN @rantaroinfo · Aug 11 
Well
 LEGALLY SHUICHI @LEGALLYSAIHARA · Aug 11 
Oh my GOD IF YOU HATE IT JUST SAY SO 
INFOMAMI-KUN @rantaroinfo · Aug 11 
Ugh. Nevermind I fucking hate you

I feel like I don't even have to say much. I already know how this entire thread made me feel. I'm sure my diary can interpret. sdkjhfalfd

Another thing I wanted to cover was the fact that I sent Kamukura and Harukawa to go kidnap Ouma. I told them to do that *a long time* ago. And just recently did they actually execute the plan. It's not even worthy anymore because I don't care to hurt him. They did some crazy shit to the guy, let me tell you. Apparently they slashed his knees or something. I'd have to read back. I was in the middle of stalking a family of 4 for a couple days while the entire thing was going on, so I don't remember much. Ouma caught on immediately that it was me who sent them. I'm glad he recognized he wouldn't have been able to do anything since I sent two very capable people for the job. And I'm not peeved about the weird comments he made about me either. I don't care about how I come off to people because of this. Truly. 
I guess the only reason I have now as to why I did what I did is because it's funny. Since it was executed *super* late. My stupid knights need to work faster.

2 nights ago I broke into Kagehara's house. K. That Kagehara. He was scheduled for a date with Legalhara, so I took my chance to break in. Kamukura was able to get me a map of his house so I knew exactly what I was doing. I entered through the window of the kitchen. I didn't cover much of the house, if I'm honest. I stood around in the kitchen for a bit before walking through the archway. I was surprised by the temperature of the home. Too cold for someone to live in. I could definitely tell there were people (people? one person?) in the house. I heard them. Constant noises were being made from the walls. I think he has homeless people and rats in his home. Especially after I was scratched on the arm. My flashlight wasn't aimed at myself, obviously, so I have no idea what could've done the damage. I heard a woman speaking to me from behind afterwards, and I can't seem to remember what she said. "don't wake him up", or something. I pulled my gun out from its holster and aimed in that direction, but it was immediately knocked out of my grasp. I picked it back up and kind of rolled towards the entrance of the home with my things. This, *woman, thing*, kept speaking to me. I couldn't tell what she was saying and I couldn't see her because my flashlight wasn't working. I shot in the direction a couple times. Ultimately, I decided to leave. I probably left his house a mess and a couple bullet holes in his wall.

Ending this entry with a quote:

I was like the Christ child lifted out of the straw manger, crying with holy indignity. I was Cinderella stepping from her pumpkin carriage with sparkly cartoon music filling the air. In all of my imaginings, I was filled with a sense that I would soon become perfect. My mother and father would adore me. I would be beyond reproach. I would never feel the need to sulk for anything. But sometimes the prodigy in me became impatient. "If you don't hurry up and get me out of here, I'm disappearing for good." it warned. "And then you'll always be nothing." (Tan, ?)