fml

i don't really trust anyone irl to say this to so im hoping i can js let it all out here online, where im anonymous with no one to judge me. ive been getting into worse habits lately. ive been smoking more (got into weed again), dating around, sneaking out, etc. i know its bad but it makes me feel so free and i js can't stop, especially with everyone around me being so bitchy uwgdhwhdushs i feel insecure abt everything and ive been pushing everyone away. school is draining and all i do is bunk anyways so ig it doesn't matter. my parents are forcing me to start studying for this really difficult entrance exam to become a doctor but i REALLY DON'T WANT TO. i feel like i wanna die but at the same time im young and i wanna live my life and experience everything. idk what to do, i can't trust anyone.