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So basically my birthday in almost 2 hours is in 1 day am I excited about it yes and no. From the begging of summer my mental health has been very shitty I been having thoughts to kill myself. I even post on my tiktoks thoughts and my friends see it but I think some of them think I'm joking. They better not be surprised when I do it because I feel like they are saying it and not actually meaning. I also been having thoughts to kill myself on my birthday I'm just in a tight up space. I would like to talk to anyone and meet new friends if I can•́▽•̀ so. DM if you wanna talk I really need a good talk rn. Ok haii love all of y'all loves and kisses🩷