gas station diary entries

look into the smog and fog of unidentifiable apples and spell it out for them letter by letter syllable by syllable (I-M-T-I-R-E-D-?)

a crooked spine is worth more than a few words and apologies, it's better to topple over gas leaks and "borrowed"alcohol than it is to care about the riot holding together bones. once you start caring youre done for, the caffeine and blazeof glory are oin their way and sunshine bleeds out 

easy e-a-s-y easy is to ease yourself down after embarrassment and e-a-s-e into folded metal and nasal familiarity 

easy e-a-s-y is to medicate yourself midway 

easy e-a-s-y is withdrawals, unclear of what - feminity? a smile on your face? trouble? 

maybe its masochism maybe its self inflicted sadism and a hint of attention seeking neediness

m-a-y-b-e im worth the trouble m-a-y-b-e youre not m-a-y-b-e im not m-a-y-b-e you are 

smiley face one and smiley face two its better to be honest i think than it is to be dishonest i think

flip the switch onand off check how it changes is it worth the hassle did you pay the deposit with the hopes of getting it back? 

or was it too bright to see through

its e-a-s-y to say youd do anything because you really wouldnt and neither would i and thats beautiful 

cling onto the reek of sweat and mold then throw (up) yourself into hormones and second POVs