haiku series : word

can i tell my life

with a single careful word

or will my hopes die

which one would I pick

to explain away my past

so it's understood

to tell about this

pick something truly lovely

"depression, sickness"

"assonant", "challenge"?

Will I pick something untrue?

"serendipity"

maybe choose "special"

or should i tell the truth with

"abomination"

"monster" "abdicate"

"extraterrestrial" "other"

"perfect" "less" "broken"

this is all a lie

nothing is really me

im not worth a word