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okay. im gonna drop all my kaomoji and typing quirks really quick. im fucking tired of wanting to cut, even when i know now my teacher, mom, and friends are aware of it. it makes me so fucking angry. my teacher pulled me out of class to have a talk about my so called "cat scratches". my teacher ? he used to work at a boarding school. hell, he basically lived there. he asked me "i saw your arm this morning. i know what it is. i used to live at a boarding school. ive seen people doing it and ive seen the blood because theyll do it at night. please tell me whats going on." i just started fucking venting to him about everything with my family and my shitty mom and brother, WHO FUCKING R4P3D ME, and my issues and how i dont have a therapist right now, and everything. he is an adult man who has a wife and 4 children, all of which go to my school. him and his wife work here while their children go to school. it makes me feel worse because now i still have my physical check-up because i was recently diagnosed with adhd and ptsd, and theyre gonna see my scars. im fucking scared. can anyone tell me any tips for getting out of this hell? i might run away with another person, and i think thats a much better decision than going alone. ill have someone who has my back and to help me get out. ill finally get away.