I tried to pierce my own ear

OK so I finally tried to pierce my ear but the thing is the needle is too big so it didn too through perfectly and now I'm trying to find a thinner needle so I can try to pierce myself but it won't go through I checked million times it isn't my bone i jsut thing the needle isn't sharp enough and it's thick I'm gonna try to take care of it even tho it's a failed piercing and tmrw I'm gonna buy a thinner needle and pierce myself again