Just life stuff

I'm kind of sick of the summer. The heat, everyone being home, the lack of anything going on. It's something I look forward to every year and then can't wait for it to end. 

The moon doesn't rise until ten tonight. The sun doesn't set till nine. Venus is visible though, strong and bright in the south-west sky. Venus reminds me of my love. Bright in the light, and even brighter in the dark, always firm and bold in it's place, but still humble in the presence of the sun or the moon. 

Not many stars are visible this time of year. Not here, anyway. I miss the night. I used to feel comfortable in the dark. Alone and unbothered, it was comforting. At some point it got depressing and I started sleeping earlier, but now being in the presence of people constantly is equally depressing. It feels like a constant battle. 

Today, I struggled. Sundays tend to be difficult for me. Tomorrow, I'll struggle again, and likely the day after that. Nothing is ever easy, but life goes on. I'll get through a final year of school, even if it seems impossible. Right now I wish I didn't have to. I'm sick of being bullied and belittled by the adults in my life. I don't mean to be lazy. I'm tired. 

I don't know what people write in a blog. These are just my thoughts. More of a journal, really. Not many people will read it, and if many do then some may like my style, so what's it matter what I write? 

Anyway, I hope you're all having a good day. Tell me, what's your favorite season? How are you enjoying the Summer (or Winter for those in the Northern hemisphere)?