losing a friend might be one of the worst experiences in the world

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I'm not talking about somebody passing away, I hope that never happens. Friends and family always came first for me, some of my friends were more important than some of my family members. They've always been more important to me than even my romantic relationships (they don't last as long as my friendships). I'm still friends with most of them and I am so grateful for it. But I know that not every friend of mine had to stay in my life forever, that's not how things work. And that sucks. That really sucks. Even with somebody that I've known for only like one week? I dont even remember. I feel like shit when I have to cut ties with them. I know I yap a lot but I feel like I lost way too many people who were like perfect match for me (as a friend ofc). And everytime that happens I feel like I won't be able to find somebody like them ever again and that hurts so bad. I think that was all for now idk. I needed to pour it out..