deadly mental breakdown

few days ago i was on a verge on doing something that i might possibly regret. u have seen the title of the subject, no need to risk of getting ban of this webstite. i felt like there was nothing i could ever love again, nothing i could do to feel happy or at ease, nothing to live for. sometimes i just sit and wonder if i am ever going to make it to my 17th. I feel my heart in breaking and aching or even begging for help each seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks or even longer. and therapy and medication does not seem to help me at all, or at least i thought. i started to love drawaing again, no need too much money. I just needed one thing. Comfort. it might seem like something completly stupid and useless 2 read and i am not waiting 4 somebody to read it and have pity for me, i just hope that someone out there that just feel like life is getting useless to keep on living on, feels the need or even the love of doing something they truly like. We got one life, and my teenage years will be forever the only thing i will ever live.