chronic pain >:( ⋆˚𖦹｡ (complaining, ft. ribbit plush)

so i probably have endometriosis or something similar that i forgot the name of, and rheumatoid arthritis, on top of my already diagnosed epilepsy (i have grand mal seizures). my epilepsy has been acting up more lately, its only been a month since my last siezure and im already starting to have close calls, just last night i almost had a seizure while recording my singing for practise. that could have been from my accidentally missed dose shortly before that, in fact thats probably it but lowkey my brain has been put through alot these last few months, so who knows. at least im not seizing every week like i was years ago, but still its not good. its been more frequent compared to the last year or so. i used to be able to go months without one seizure but now its once every month, damn near. 

so like. theres so much stuff to go over so im gonna keep it simple so sorry if you think i missed anything trust me i have a laundry list of symptoms amd i hate it T_T

im not gonna talk about all the symptoms cause thats not the point. other than my epilepsy, my suspected arthritis and endometriosis are acting up now, and i think it has to do with my epilepsy aswell. my nervous system is under constant stress, it makes sense that my hormones are fluctuating and my chronic pain is flaring up. i just wish i got freaking help. my doctors wont do shi bro. its so stupid. the medical gaslighting is so real dude. and i think its because im autistic. but then, thats even worse, because autistic people are literally more physically sensitive than neurotypicals in the first place!!!! so yeah, needless to say im pissed tbh. im gonna switch doctors and find someone who actually takes me seriously, and doesnt make me wait a year just to talk to them and hear that theyre avoiding their responsibility: giving their patient the care they need. no refferals to gynecologists or rheumetologists, nothing. not even a note in the file. idk what i expect though, canadas health care is actual dookie. 

anyways, the pain has subsided slightly but its still there, and i have to rely on tylenols with only a small amount of codiene. (legally acquired, dont smite me). even that doesnt do crap. tylenol does literally nothing for my pain. but ill be okay, do not worry :P 

also my ribbit plushie arrived today, i made a bulletin showing her :3 but ill show her again!

her bow is magnetic !

~ dizzy.ᐟ ꩜˚｡