WHAT THE FUCK

Ok.

Remember that function I told ya'll about??Take fucking chips or smth because this is gonna be fun.

So

The function was two hours away from me.

So c'mon Felix you gotta be all emo and punkfied for this one.

Make up done,cute fit.

Ok.

I start with the first train,gonna do the ticket

The TWO machines won't read my bancomat.

Ok,don't panick,gonna do it online.

I go to the right floor for the train that is about to arrive meanwhile the sites for the tickets decides that my bancomat it wasn’t good for it.I can't manage to do the tickets but,hey,mother universe love me so I manage to travel without ANY consequences.

!!Important detail!!

I had NO FUCKING CLUE where I was going (first time in this place and was by myself because I'm a function adult with a spikey choker and a dream)

Ok,second train.

Gotta do the metro ticket,I manage to do it.

Let's remember this eight minutes like the best thing in this wonderful day gifted by our lord and savior.

LAST TRAIN

Gotta do ANOTHER ticket in this fuckass fancy metro with its big ass floors.

I was SWEATING for the heat because here in Italy the sun is kicking our asses.

I manage to get into the train.

I sit.

1 stop.

2 stop.

3 stop.

 4,5,6???

The train stops.

I look to my imaginary camera and asked mother universe WHY this was happening to me

(Lil' spoiler,there's gonna be an answer later)

Gotta stay calm and wait,but couldn’t do that

Why you may ask?

Because the function started at 5 pm and would end at 9:30 pm.

The time I was stuck in the train it was 7 pm.

(Someone smart would ask me “why didn’t u move ur ass EARLIER??”

Wonderful question!

Can't justify myself but let's just say I didn’t organized very well and I was fighting my social anxiety for going alone-but,hey!Now we're here!)

Playing deltarune would keep me company and not making me anxious.

I wait.

We wait.

The train restarts and I thank mother universe.

I GO TO THE FUNCTION 

NOW,HOLD ONTO SOMETHING MY FRIEND.

I GO TO THE FUCKASS PLACE.

MHHH,I can,t find anyone (maybe they are in the big abandoned building-there was gonna be urbex exploring ok??the function told me so.)

20 minutes passes.

I check the poster.

“Musical function 5 pm,23 of July at ********”

I check the calendar.

Today is 22 of July.

I look at my broken phone,all sweating,covered in dust,two hours away from home and my fucking helix that is spilling blood because YES

WHY NOT?

.

.

.

I returned to the station.

Now,u want me to be honest?I actually laughed.I was happy I actually made it and that I that for once I made myself go out of my comfort zone.

I would come back the next day more organized and with knowing where I was going.

So,life's beautiful.

But.

Oh,there was someone who didn’t think so.

As I was saying,I return to the station.

There were police officer to check the ticket and me,a person with common sense,buy the ticket.

All good you may think?

Right?

Wrong.

I go into the train.

I sit.

The train starts its run.

I'm a silly fella with new experiences done and just so happy and proud with myself.

Suddenly,a police officer tap my shoulder.

I gave them the ticket,it’s all good,life is precious.

The officer gave me a look

“It's not obliterated”

I freeze.

My life was a joke.

Wanna know the best thing??

THIS WONDERFUL POLICE OFFICER EVEN SAW ME DO THE TICKET.

SHE JUST DIDN'T FUCKING CARE.

“56€ of penalty”

I start to cry,those were my last money.

My mother gave it to me and I was just so sad because she works her ass off EVERY day for me,my sister and my father.

I was so sorry for her and it was my fault.

Long story short,I return crying all the way for home feeling just so sorry for loosing money.

One of the last thing happened to me was this nice lady blind by one eye,who saw everything,telling me “don't cry,those are things that happens”

“But it’s not fair”

“I know,I know”

At this point,I was feeling egoistical.

I'm a person that has everything,I was very lucky for having my family and I still am.

It’s ok to be angry and sad,but there are people that have it worse than you.

So,wanna do what I'm gonna do tomorrow?

I'm gonna try again.

I will go to that place,make some new friends and won’t discourage myself.

I really wanted something.

I wanted to go there.

And I did it.

Life's gonna kick ur ass,there's gonna be a lot of troubles,but if u really want something trust me,you're going to have it.

This was the adventure of today.

Love u all,never give up Xd