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News terrifies me, each days i hear about something bad happening, i'm so scared about the future and i feel like i'm running out of time. I feel useless because my fears block me from doing anything like activism, i drown my brain in distraction everydays but i feel like it's never enough.
I'm also anxioux about other things like school, i am entering a new school in a few weeks and i'm so scared. I didnt learn anything last year bc i stopped coming to school after a while. I'm scared about the teachers and what they'll think of me if i get bad grades.
I can even write anymore because nobody told me i wasn't holding my pencil right until it was too late for me to fix it. Now writing makes my hand hurt really badly and it's really difficult for me to do it. I know it may seems ridiculous but i feel so ashamed of it. I may have a keyboard next year to help me write but i don't want it because i'm scared of being bullied and feel ridiculous.
Sorry i just really needed to vent about this, especially with strangers on the internet, i feel like i'll be less judged. And this website is way less toxic than mainstream social medias like tiktok and instagram.
Writing this makes me feel a little better already.
(please don't hesitate to correct my english mistakes, it's weird to say that after venting but i want people to understand what i'm saying lol.)
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Me○w☆
hey hey...idk why this sounds a lot like old me, and i have been their buddy.
please take a deep breath and calm yourself down. maybe take a journal and a pen and list down the current problems you're having?
or we can talk maybe idk...uhm..i have exams this week tho.. so i'll be busy but i want to help you so i'll leave some advice.
- don't panic, i understand you're scared and anxious about going to new school especially if you have not learnt anything from past year but. but its also a new opportunity maybe? even if you're late, please give yourself time to get back on track on improve. TRUST ME ! I HAVE BEEN THERE! YET I GOT BACK ON TRACK ON MY OWN cuz..everyone else was shit.
anyways ! if you're ever stressed, please drink water and eat something light or maybe go out for a walk.
- cutting off too much social media..i mean you can still use it but promise yourself not to scroll if you have a habit of it. look forward to side of youtube which gives study tips, improvement tips. even if its boring it might wire your brain to go back to work.
give yourself a room for improvement okay buddy? good luck for your days ahead, stay cool and chill if talking to people in new school and PLEASE be wise if who u r being friends with cuz my first friends in new school were not cool they took advantage of me because i easily vented to them.
- YOU ARE STRONG ! even if you feel the urge to vent which is totally fine, but i want you to make sure its not someone who might exploit your vulnerability.
big hug
Thanks for replying !! This is so nice, venting already made me feel a bit better, but i'll try to follow your advices, it reassures me that people who've been in the same situation are doing better today.
by Oriannx; ; Report
yeah! good luck :)) i hope things go smoothly for you <3
by Me○w☆; ; Report
thanks again :) wish you the best
by Oriannx; ; Report