My invalid affection

You have no idea how hard it is to explain all this to you. I already told you how I felt about my ex, and then there was this new guy—well, not *that* new, since I was "getting to know" him. Oh, my friend, you have no idea how hard I fell for him. I care about him—I admit it, I really like him. I felt like we had great chemistry, a healthy connection, and a real rapport; I enjoyed his company just as much as he enjoyed mine. I care about him so much. God, how you play with my feelings... What can I say? It’s just another story—one of so many—where someone gets involved with another person without knowing what they’re getting into, and things just get confusing. Maybe I made the mistake of falling in love and failing to distinguish between friendship and flirting, even though I tried to keep my distance. But the idiot kept asking me things and telling me all about his life anyway. Maybe I should have kept my feelings to myself a bit more instead of saying anything when we hung out a few weeks ago. I shouldn't have let myself get so comfortable or played along with those childish games we used to play while walking around your neighborhood. You were stuck in your indifference, while I was slipping deeper into my feelings. "Friends"—oh, what a bad joke. I should have just listened to you when you said you couldn't be friends with someone you liked. I mean, do you have feelings for me but can't say so because you're confused? Is that why you just stopped talking to me like it was nothing and made everything more complicated—just so I’d stop feeling this way about you? Makes sense, right My friend?