Summer has been a BUMMERRRR

I don't know, maybe I haven't tried hard enough, but this summer has been terrible for me. i don't think it's as bad as last summer, but i don't have hopes anymore. and by that, I mean I used to think i wanted to be a music therapist or i wanted to be a comic artist, maybe even a writer, and sometimes i would dream about being a famous musician. (even though i despise the idea of being famous.) but now, it's just like i wanna be nothing at all. more often than not, I lay in my bed and I just wish to rot away, or I wish I could trap myself in some kind of bubble to where nobody can find me and I don't have my responsibilities, and then I can wake up or get out when I'm 18. So many things in my life require waiting, and I have nothing to do to pass the time. I've tried to do things, to reach out, to do things for myself, to dress how i feel best, but no matter what, I'm just stuck in this empty waiting room. I keep thinking of Waiting Room by Fugazi. Maybe that will make me pass the time. but till then, I wait, I wait, I wait, I wait.