Why is the world a horrible place

In reality I know why

I’m not stupid 

But it just gets me down

Especially being afab

Like violence against women, pay gap, sexism in general. It just. Sucks

The fact no man truly understands and hell even some women don’t. 

It gets me down a lot. How unsafe i am going and moving through every day life. 

Is my fyp feeding me this content and making it worse

Yes

But the things they say are still true to some extent at least

I have a female doctor and she refused to even listen to what could be wrong with me. No research no nothing

Oh losing hair at 16-17? Yeah completely normal!

Oh the dermatologist didn’t fix it and just told you to buy their products? Oh well

Oh it’s been two years and you’ve been doing anything and it’s only getting worse? Stop wearing hats. Oh you don’t? Stop wearing pony tails. Oh you don’t? Use special shampoo, oh you do? Take iron. Oh you have been for two years. Take more. Oh max dose daily for 2 years. It takes time

It took my family going repeatedly and getting recommended another doctor and that doctor pushing for iron transfusions for something to actually be done

Every other doctor female or male just told me “it’s normal for a girl on their period to have that level of iron!”

Yeah but I’m not on my period. And once again. Max dose DAILY for 2 straight years. So. I’m supposed to wait 10 years for my iron to finally be normal

Clearly something is wrong hello 😭

And I’m sorry why is my worth directly tied to my looks

As a non attractive person. Why am I treated like I’m stupid. Why when I am a fan of something I’m childish. When I have fun and whimsy I’m dumb or slow.??? 

In highschool I was always treated like I was stupid despite my high grades (by students and not teachers)

Why am I not worth talking to? Cuz I’m not attractive? Idk twin?

Why am I more likely to die or be injured in a car crash? I didn’t wanna fuckin drive in the first place but I didn’t design the city

Why does nothing fit my body? Are women not allowed to have ppe or clothes that fit chests?

Why is it an insult and women’s fault for having “daddy issues” when the dad is the one that failed. And why just because I dress alt do some people assume I have daddy/parent issues. I have a great relationship with my family…?

Why is resting bitch face a thing. No they just arnt smiling

“Smile more” “why are you glaring” “you never talk” “your so mean” no I’m actually just in a natural restful state. I don’t need to smile at everything 24/7

Side note why do people care if I talk or smile at work. I’m there to work. And also the reason I’m glaring, hiding on my breaks and not talking. For lack of a better term is because I’m currently depressed overthinking and overwhelmed and I’m dying inside and not doing well so unless you want me to scream at you or break down crying or just be a burden at work. Uh. Let me be?

I’m talkitive happy and doing fun things all day when I’m not in a bad mood. Yeah I know I was laughing and having fun 15 minutes ago. But then I had a bad thought and now I wanna kill myself so no more talking. Or I had one minor inconvenience and my day is ruined.

Why do random like dads come up to me and tell me to smile. Bro just go down the fuckin slide

I’m not here for your entertainment

I’m tired and wanted to sleep a long time ago

I forgot the point of this rant

Why do people at work think I’m so anti social and mean? Bro i swear im fun and talkative I just tend to be in really bad moods when I wear out ppe cuz it takes away my hearing and I zone out and start dying idk

Hell I’m more talkative this year cuz I have MY music playing and it’s loud and I can always hear it so my what would once be a mini panic attack at work is now just zoning out