People are scary.

Why is talking to people so scary, like in the history, that was what made us survive, through like creating groups, and then, now, here I am, getting to scared to message most of the people i have in my friends list on this website, I don't even have to look at someone, yet I can do ts most of the time. 

If not for talking mankind would have died out, and yet here I am. 

The worst part its not even physically bad, why do i stress over it? Should my brain reward me for it? I know I am scared cuz of the lack of exposure, but still. I can talk with my friend on discord all day, so I am not asocial or anything like that, but i have trouble talking to my friends friends. 

How are people so social, how do they find motivation, do they get dopamine for talking to new people, why do people go outside, isn't it easier to stay at home and sit in front of a screen all day while making your brain slighly more addicted to the gray zone between slop and valuable content?

Talking to people doesn't physically hurt, why the actual fuck am i scared to make friends, it should be positive, like I am not scared to talk if you text first, but like continuing the conversation on my own, no way. And why do I fell bad for yapping about shit i like? do all people feel that way? Like talking while also knowing its slighly annoying to the another person. I like to think that life alone would be so great, but I know I would probably kill myself in like a year if i lived like Ted Kaczynski. 

sorry for making anyone read my schizo rant-ish text, just wanted to post something and I couldn't think of anything else, also I swear I am NOT a incel.