I just want to feel (CW sh)

Feel what it would be cutting my skin

Seeing the blood pour down like it's a sin

Seeking the pain like it's unreal

I just want to see those scars

Scars that will decorate my mind 

Thighs, stomach and arms

All so pretty and outlined to find

Watching the blood pour out in gallons

Feeling it soak and stick into everything more and more

Getting everything dirty and feeling my limbs sore

And it seems I still can't get enough 

Maybe I'm a lonely sadist

Or a pretty crazy masochist

Because this making me feel horrible 

But so good I can stop thinking it's incredible 

This feels so wrong, so wrong 

Knowing people suffer with this for so long 

And they might be strong enough 

But Im just waiting for the time to slip and do it all