messed up

im so tired of trying and intreact with new persons i think all my efforts are just wasting and its making me just sick of relationships nobody is the same person as they say everyone is lame asf and just fuckbg wasting my time i want to found someone who literally loves me purely and dont think lustful thibgs about me or expect from me anyshit like that i want to be in a relationship where im getting fun feeling safe not hating myself and my partner to be loyal not anything crazy at all why tf those are some hard things to find in a person it’s driving me crazy i want to marry in three years and get ride of my family start a new family i only be able to reach my freedom like this but its so hard so so hard i hate everything i hate everyone i talked to i hate overthinking about them i fycking giving up i just need someone who is crazy w me like who is genuinely obsessed with me or else nothing gonna work im enoughly done