hello !! (7/13/2026)

Didn't realize it's already been about 8-9 months since my last post on here! My bad!! Obviously I don't prioritize this site so much but it is fun to come back to. A lot of things happening so posting here just often kind of slips my mind. This year is going by so fast already, but it's best not to spiral about that.

I turned 22! My birthday was on the 9th but I've been celebrating with my friends a lot these past few days mostly due to sickness preventing me from celebrating with them how I wanted to on my birthday. We tried to make something happen a couple nights ago but I got really nauseous :p But we finally got to hang out a little more last night we played minecraft and I finished off some cake and ice cream and drank alcohol. My friend Evanz couldn't show up though unfortunately.

Ned sent me a gift in the mail for my birthday! Max pitched in money for some extra treats too. Best birthday gift ever. He sent me some treats from Texas and some nice smelling body wash and scrub, but the big thing was Tony !! He's so cool and polite and stupid. He's a working clock and I haven't really figured out where to set him still so he's just sitting on the side desk with all my other plushies.

I should definitely address my last entry (which was friends only so disregard if you're some stranger passing through), I didn't realize I left things on such a worrisome note. I got approved for healthcare but I still haven't been to a doctor, but I can pretty safely say a lot of what's been wrong with me is my anxiety even though I had my doubts before. It's just totally out of whack now and I really have no control over it. Not that I had very good control over it before but it's really been taking a physical toll on me. Whenever something stressful happens it feels like I start having a bunch of symptoms AFTER it's already done and over with probably bc I spend so much time being tense. I have my appointment next month and hopefully we can get this sorted out, then I really gotta seriously look into employment ewww. Been working on getting signed up to Prolific to make some money in the meantime but I'm unsure if it'll be a good fit for me. We'll have to see I guess. 

The other month in May me and my mother went to the movies THREE times in one month, which is a lot for us, it's usually a 2-3 times every year sort of thing. Went to see Project Hail Mary which she really wanted to go see, Backrooms, and Obsession. Those last two were more for me lol but really fun theater watches. We went to go see the extended cut of Backrooms for my birthday too! Was it worth it? Probably not but I really wanted an excuse to just go see the film in theaters one more time it's a movie thats really made to be experienced like that. 

Other than that though that's the most exciting stuff going on with me. I've been very burnt out artistically and am trying to start picking it back up, I need to start going out again for walks bc I sort of put it on pause while I tried really hard to finish a drawing for a deadline just to not finish it. Really demoralizing. But now that there's no deadline I might as well start walking again when it's not too hot. Thank you for reading all this if you bothered !