Talkingstages

Talkingstages. Idk why but the only man i've ever taken serious, was my ex who i saw every day at school. When you meet people online from your city and they kinda force it to be a talkingstage it never really works for me. When i really feel something for someone, it's because we've already known eachother for a long time. Last time turned me into a litteral manhater. And i hate to say or use that word, but ugh. Like if i've spoken to you before irl or seen you arround a couple times then yes i would feel more comfortable. Idk i just shut off when idk you.

The last time i really felt something for someone, was for a boy i met drunk. I slept at his that night and he took my virginity. We were FWB for a long time but he ghosted me. Sad for a day and then moved on. After that i stopped trying to talk to a men in like a likeable way. I just started seeing every male as a friend and not someone i could see myself with yk. 

There was just one boy who i would only perssue something with. We talked for a couple weeks but stopped talking and idek why. He was everything a man had to be for me to really give my all. He looked out for me on nights out, even if he wasn't there. He then called me if i wasn't on my phone for more than 1 hour. That is the type of men i want and need. He just doesn't really want anything.