poor judas iscariot

i love him unconditionally

but im starting to believe

somethings wrong with me

when he smiles

my heartbeat spikes

the feeling used to be shock and excitement

when did it change to fear?

when he opens his arms to me

i cannot help but think his joy has a deadline

he is so disgustingly alive 

how long till that changes?

till i, the serpent, the traitor, am the reason that changes?

no

not me

the reason he is fabled and infamous

He will be the downfall of us

his life, my

my what?

sanity?

trust?

my heart?

He will nail my soul to a wooden cross

for people not yet a thought

i am the original blasphemer 

my purpose is to betray

i will fall

the people will curse me

never thinking of the puppeteer, the monster

up high where he cannot see our flickering candles of mortality

so condemn me, damn me, hate me forevermore

just dont forget me

inspired by my fav musical EVER jesus christ superstar

its so sad judas rlly wasnt evil GOD was

wrote this while listening 2 gethsemane (i only want to say)

not christian but raised 2 be babayyyyyyy so ik my stuff dw dont fight me