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My hormones are fucked up okay. I was rewatching heartstopper last night and suddenly just started bawling my eyes out because I realised that I miss him? Which is so so so embarrassing to admit since I don't even think he likes me in that way? He confuses me, he's messing with my brain because one second he's "flirting" and the next he's brushing it off as if nothing happened and then we don't talk in weeks.
He took me on dates? A cafe...the movies...his house...then hints at surprising me with my fav sweets and that he'll learn how to make capuccinos which is my fav drink ever, telling me it's cute how I accidentally fall asleep at my PC, being motivated to learn more about me by asking the most random but specific questions, putting my art as his pfp even after I said it looks shit, he calls me and makes me stay up till 4 AM laying in the bed while endlessly talking to him about the randomest things................
All this. But nothing ever happens...I can't even say it's a "slowburn" because again, I don't know how he truly feels. He's so hard to read and it's pissing me off how curious he makes me.
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PLS HELP ME AUGHGHGHG.
-Should I text him first and tell him I miss him or is that too gross and weird?
-Should I go to the movie night he invited me to with him and his friends/a friend of mine or should I cancel bc I genuinely look fucked up bc of my hormones?
-If I go, should I confront him atp and tell him ominously/vaguely that he confuses me?
-Should I just continue waiting until something "happens" or should I step up and make the move (I no no wanna).
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Selphira/Selphie
I have to say...I'm really surprised by your blog. Of course, I've looked at all kinds of blogs here, but this is something different. Something about people that I don't quite understand.
All right, I'll try to say something.
From what I understand, you’re in love with someone, but you don’t know if the feeling is mutual—or are you afraid to tell them? And that’s also because this person doesn’t seem to have romantic interest in you, but just knows you well. Okay, tell me, have you thought about the fact that they’re acting like a friend? Like a best friend, to be specific. Maybe they’re not interested in a relationship, but they’re always there to brighten up your days?
Yeah maybe he is just being friendly with me? But another thing is that last time we were on a call late at night, he started talking about values in a relationship, we just had that convo before he said goodnight but maybe it was nothing? Idk, but thank you for sharing your perspective on it!! I think I needed that.
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As experience shows, you should always consider different possibilities of what might be or what might happen. Your friend is a good one, I'm happy for you.
Of course, there’s also the possibility that he has feelings for you too. But he’s afraid to say so, or he’s still thinking it over. But you know the saying, “Time will tell”? It means that sooner or later, fate will decide how things turn out for you. But maybe you need to take the first steps.
But I still prefer to think with a clear head. So observe, think, and don’t rush to a conclusion. Be attentive and think ahead. It’s better to think than to act blindly. Although, hormones are like that, they can make a person do strange things...
It's a good thing I'm a Goddess, to some extent, and I don't have that!
by Selphira/Selphie; ; Report