I hate everything and I wanna kill or be killed (over a minor inconvenience)

I feel like I wasted hours. I wanted to shower, colour a drawing. Then sleep.

Of course right after I get in the shower the hot water dies

My dad in the middle of a dnd game goes to fix it but can’t do it right away so he says to wait

I wanted to be in bed by 12. Shower at 11. (My showers are like max 10 min. Usually 5)

11-12  

Nothing happens, I’m scrolling and don’t even notice

12 try again not fixed

1 am rolls around dnd wraps up 

I’m already super upset cuz I just wasted my whole day (did nothing when I got home) I didn’t get to draw cuz I was waiting to shower. And now I’m going to bed late

My sister asks where keys are

I’m very mad I haven’t showered as it’s 1 am and I have to wake up at 8. (Takes me at least an hour to fall asleep and I work 8 hours in a 97 degree 85 humidity building)

Anyways I yell at her and tell her where they are (always in a common area for this reason)

Reminder to self card is in bathroom 

MP3 on bed

I go out to see if my dad fixed the water yet

My sister took the beads I bought and opened them and I assume took some

So I (still waiting for a shower) call my sister 

“Hello?”

“Why did you open my beads”

Hangs up

I call 10 more times

Voicemail

I scream cuz I’m just so mad and frustrated 

So I go downstairs to her room 

Lowkey stole 5$ from her

Then I got my shower

Cried the whole shower

And am now

I should really sleep it’s 1:25 (yes this all happened in like 30 minutes)

I hate her so much I hate everything I hate everything 

I’m gonna stop drawing now but I don’t want to cuz I don’t wanna lose motivation for art fight cuz I need to practice but I was doing so well with one a day I was only a day behind now I’m almost 3 bro I hate everything I hate everyone 

Life sucks and there’s no one I can vent to I hate everything

And all I can think of is that and my brain is so loud and won’t shut up I’m so fucking tired

I’m so tired I just wanna sleep but I can’t and I’m so so tired