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first and foremost, Oli get the fuck off this post. you dont get to read my vents.
anyway, i dont think ive felt loved since i was like 5. thats crazy. im kinda glad cause i get really weird when i like people. like super attached and needy, its super embarassing. thats mostly why i only talk to people online cause if i embarass myself too much i can just block them and never talk to them again. thats just how i deal with it.
kinda would be nice to have someone who likes me more than everyone else, kinda all i want
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whitewingedasmodeus
I understand this, I feel loved because I love myself, I have turned oblivious to the people who might not love me, and I make friends with the people who do, I consider myself to be a very free corny person. To be free is to be corny and to be corny as to be free.
I wasn't always like this I used to be a very timid shy dude, I used to think everybody was judging me and everybody hated me. I used to think I had no friends. Looking back that was because I looked at myself pathetically. It's a tiny little boy and I didn't understand why I could be so pathetic how I could be so pathetic. Also looking back I remember that I had a lot of friends. People who said goodbye to me everyday. I just didn't really feel like they were my friends. That's because I was susceptible to judging. I was scared of what other people would think. I was assuming what other people were thinking about me. And I hated myself. Also I believe in the thing the people say, if you can't love yourself you can't love others. You truly can't. Because you so focused on yourself you can't be focused on that person. I think to love yourself and love others. You have to learn how to accept yourself and trust yourself for what will happen.
I bet you were loved and I bet you are liked by your friends. And if you truly don't feel that way maybe you need new friends. I'll be your friend!
I love you twin, platonically ofc.
Pick your people!