2 - Attention deficit what??!

I'll get to the title later. Just saying it now, procrastination is the devil. Genuinely having to force yourself to get remotely anything done is the worst experience of all time. Especially when it's relative to my hobbies. Reading? Drawing? Wanting to do it and get it out of the way but being unable to. Procrastination will be my downfall. This morning I forced myself to just get my ArtFight attacks over and done with. I'm glad it's over, but I could've done so much better especially with the animation. Instead of doing frame by frame I just tweened the already made images, and while it was lazy at this point I just wanted to get it out of the way.

I think a few months ago I made a similar blog entry talking about how procrastination affects me. It's not only in creative outlet fields, but also in school as well. Speaking of the devil...

My psychologist said it is likely possible that I have ADHD. That is something that I remotely have never even considered. I guess because I didn't fit into that "hyperactive loud energetic!!!" stereotype that for some reason all neurodivergent people get. Instead, it shows itself in subtle things- the constant forgetting of school work. Cleaning, starting something new, forgetting what I was doing originally, and eventually having to circle back to it. Being unable to focus in classes, even in the ones that I'm good at or enjoy. Wanting to start dozens of other projects without finishing the first project I started. Getting bursts of motivation to do things and then quickly getting bored or tired of it. My mind constantly zoning out or drifting off in the middle of conversations, even if I'm kinda interested. Stimming, although that may be more of an anxiety thing. All of my dad's family has ADHD, which makes it possibly even more prominent. 

I'm going to wait to talk to her next time to look into it further and possibly even get a formal diagnosis, but either way my Therapist told me that I should ask to get on a 504 plan specifically because of my issues that I've had beforehand. Wish me luck this year. Things are already complicated enough.